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Its feels strange to be writing an entry after so long. I just want to get things in my mind out.
Lets begin with summer.
Over all I'd say interesting. Too many things have gone by to list, but I'll just note a few things I've lost and gained.
I've stopped smoking weed, not that I was ever a heavy user anyways but,
I've picked up smoking...I've been able to keep it at socially only for now.
My drinking habits are occasional say the least, but thats about to change too with the arrival of my fake I.D.
I'm sure that streak is over heh.
I've only gambled once this summer at Morangos came up 180. Not too shabby.
There was a whole bunch of down time where there was absolutely nothing to do.
So I picked up my adobe skills quite a bit, been working on flyers, and party promoting.
Septembers around the corner and I've started preping for the Fall rush.
Did I meantion I'm Vice Pres of my frat this year. Things are picking up pretty quick.
I plan on being pretty busy from now till classes begin.
The things that been on my mind, I guess the reason I'm writing this post is what happened recently.
Its my own fault, I'd like to say first.
I gave away something quite important to me.
My ring...
Sure it has an actual value of $10, but without even saying its worth plenty more.
I gave it to a friend that I wanted to see happy. It served its purpose.
I guess I just have detachment issues.
I keep telling myself its gaining value because it'll have meaning to her as well.
I want it back...but I don't at the same time.....
Aug. 28th, 2006 @ 05:50 am
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| » Why I should be grateful. |
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Lots of thinking time resulted in this.
Why I should be grateful.
FOR:
Family in all its forms.
Friends that have supported me for years.
The opportunity to attain a better future.
Everything that I possess.
Being alive.
When it comes down to it, things are really simple, but we tend to complicate.
Trying to be happier is selfish. We've lost sight in what is important.
Go back to basics.
Dec. 27th, 2004 @ 12:30 am
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| » Updated Winter |
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12/19: Duke's
WHOA!!! Crystal finished the steak!!! DAMN!!! Impressive. Was a great evening. Me, Laura, Ms. C. Ocean side view, candle lit table, and the best damn steak ever. whoooooo. Needless to say, none of us could move after, but that's ok! Was well worth it. No meat for a while...
12/20: B-day (Susan)
Was bitter sweet, I barly got to see everyone then I had to bail for Fresno. I was quite pissed. Hang, Nancy, CHRISTINE!!, SUSAN, MAI Phuoung hehe. Damn I missed Amy. mucho sad. meloncholy...
12/21-22: Fresno
Was a good trip. Arrived at 1:00 A.M., slept. Next day, went to get Nicole's oil changed, had Mexican food for lunch. Dinner was sweeeet. SUSHI!!! With Tempura Ice Cream!!!! whoa!!!! goooooood stuffffffffffffffff. Good bonding time. had lots of fun hehe. And now Poker night. 10 man tourney. Doesn't get better than this.
12/23: ??
12/24: ??
12/25: X-mas, Family
12/26-31: FREE
Fill this gap right here
Dec. 22nd, 2004 @ 09:17 pm
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| » Sched. Winter |
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INTRO TO CELL & MOLECULAR BIOL
BIOL-005A-001 3.00 MWF 1010AM-1100AM UNLH 1000
INTRO TO CELL & MOLECULR BIO LAB
BIOL-05LA-018 1.00 R 0110PM-0400PM SPTH 1122
GENERAL CHEMISTRY
CHEM-001B-001 4.00 MWF 1110AM-1200PM BRNHL B118
LABORATORY
CHEM-001B-055 NG 0.00 R 0610PM-0900PM PRCE 1340
INTERMEDIATE COMPOSITION (Waitlisted)
ENGL-001B-038 4.00 MWF 0110PM-0200PM OLMH 1132
INTRODUCTORY PSYCHOLOGY
PSYC-002 -001 4.00 MWF 0910AM-1000AM UNLH 1000
DISCUSSION
PSYC-002 -028 NG 0.00 T 0210PM-0300PM OLMH 0420
Dec. 20th, 2004 @ 01:27 pm
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| » ugh, Poetry again. |
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Typhoon In Thought
What is it that I miss?
Is it your smile?
Your eyes?
The way you shy away?
Can distance really cause the mind to drift?
What makes you, you??
Why are the little things so important?
Who am I to wonder why?
Where's the right, when things seem so wrong?
Does it matter? No.
What matters?
The fact that you won't leave my mind.
The memory of your smile.
The softness in your eyes.
The way you shy away.
Distance is but illusion.
You are the most precious thing you can be.
Everything has meaning.
I am nothing, compared to you.
Right is what you feel inside.
This all matters..........
Dec. 19th, 2004 @ 01:08 pm
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| » Winter Update |
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For This Month: (Running on and off)
12/11: Julie!!
I got back from Riverside at about 3:30 P.M., Showered and headed to JD's. I missed her, haha. Very occasional meetings, but the convos are great. Ended up going to Rolling Hills to buy pencils, haha. Actually shoot pool, but eh over priced. Ate at Mac Grill down in Manhattan. That was funny, watching JD be all happy. Tap-X for the rest of the night. From 9:00p.m. - 12:00p.m. Gotta love the stuff she brings up. Relational issues, Gender mentality, tendencies, man, its my intellectual convo. Miss you much JD. Gotta do this again soon.
12/12: Laguna (grubbin)
Ah, Laguna Beach (the place not show) was great, nice beach scene, I DIDN'T get lost this time (damn proud haha), Meet up with Nicole and went to a Chinese place. Pretty good food. Decided to go to La Mirada and visit Jen, man her college reminds me to much of HS. Too many white people. Surprised they dont have a Kappa Kappa Kappa frat, hahaha KKK, hahaha. eh. good night, missin them all so it was rather nostalgic.
12/13: Forgot?
I really don't remember......seriously........can be a good thing......or bad thing...........
12/14: Ocean's 12 w/ Nic./Ms.C
Nic came down to my place this time. Went to Seafood Port. Man walnut shrimp is gooood. It's been a long time. Grubbed, dropped Nic off at her car and chilled with Crystal until t'was time to watch Ocean's 12. GOOOD movie, I highly recomend it.
12/15: Sugar Rush w/ Ms. C
Visited the HS. yea I dunno why. but we did. Went to Creme de la Crepe for lunch. French food, gotta love it. Free desert crepe. The waiter was pretty cool. Food coma right after that though. Still went to Mitsuwa and loaded up on sugar, Eclairs, pocky, creme puffs, red bean ice creme etc etc. man Crazy sugar high hahahaha. was a funny night.
12/16: UCLA w/ Susan
Just hung out with Susan =), Damn I've Miss you too!
12/17: Kick back w/ Ms. C
Low budget day, sat around watching movies and such pretty much the whole day. EUROTRIP!!!!!!
12/18: !@#$!@%^!#$#@
A Day better left unspoken about..............................................................................
Dec. 19th, 2004 @ 12:31 pm
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| » EXACTLY HOW I AM THIS VERY MOMMENT. |
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Linkin Park Numb lyrics
I'm tired of being what you want me to be
Feeling so faithless, lost under the surface
I don't know what you're expecting of me
Put under the pressure, of walking in your shoes
(Caught in the undertow, just caught in the undertow)
Every step that I take is another mistake to you
(Caught in the undertow, just caught in the undertow)
[Chorus:]
I've become so numb
I can't feel you there
Become so tired, so much more aware
I'm becoming this, all I want to do
Is be more like me and be less like you
Can't you see that you're smothering me?
Holding too tightly, afraid to lose control
'Cause everything that you thought I would be
Has fallen apart, right in front of you
(Caught in the undertow, just caught in the undertow)
Every step that I take is another mistake to you
(Caught in the undertow, just caught in the undertow)
An' every second I waste is more than I can take
[Chorus: Repeat]
And I know
I may end up failing too
But I know
You were just like me
With someone disappointed in you
[Chorus: Repeat]
I've
Become so numb
I can't feel you there
I'm tired of being what you want me to be (x2)
Dec. 9th, 2004 @ 09:46 pm
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| » Neverending Headache!!!!!! |
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Head throbin' and I'ma write a poem. Hmmmm, thinking while in pain...oh well.
Melancholy Melody
The first sound, the second note, the third emotion,
The where’s and why’s of how it came to be,
A slow pulse, invading the senses,
Relax, and remember the impression that you made on me,
Sweet upon ears, sedative to hear, chords of poison,
Why must this echo beyond my mind?
Raging the essence of buried thoughts,
Rescue me from the pleasant insanity,
Slipping slowly away, softly fading,
It engulfs me with shards of nostalgia,
Left over from yesterday,
Lingering till the next day.
Dec. 4th, 2004 @ 06:14 pm
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| » Bailing. |
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Gone tmo. Back in LA. good shit!!!
Going Black Friday shopping, that should be interesting for sure. Good ol 3 A.M. lines. heh.
I can honestly say that this last week has been dragging, but its acutally kinda nice.
Ugh, too tired to type. zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz
Nov. 24th, 2004 @ 04:28 am
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| » ChhhhhhhhiiiiiiiiiiiiLLLLLLLLLLLL |
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It is, very much so. Got the song Nightmare stuck in my head. I swear, some of the best music have no words. Imagine a creepy amusement park sound, and that describes the whole song. Feelin, great, life's good, nuff said. Time to chill for the week and Thanksgiving then hit the books hard. Got this mess down. Sup to everyone!
Nov. 22nd, 2004 @ 03:54 pm
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| » Humor. |
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People are such fragile things.
Nov. 15th, 2004 @ 07:17 pm
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| » Moods Cont. |
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Wicked Smile
Cornered, blank, luscious
Centered, beautified, loved
Crossed, broken, longing
Captured, braced, lifted
Nov. 12th, 2004 @ 04:18 pm
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| » Morongo |
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Just one thing.
Winnings: $90+
need I say more? hahahaha
Nov. 11th, 2004 @ 03:52 am
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| » Needed Peace |
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I'm going to start with the poetry again. That'll make Sandy happy, heh. Nothing good right now, just mental anguish. Simple. Direct.
Hostility
My peace has been disturbed.
You're starting to annoy me.
I want to beat you down.
No longer chill.
Nov. 9th, 2004 @ 04:49 pm
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| » One of those Drifting thought days. |
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Lyrics: Paul Oakenfold - Southern Sun
piece by piece
I release
once was mine
now undone
turned blue like New
Orleans
and went down like
a southern sun
I still feel you
beneath my skin
I am tempted
to throw my senses in
'cos its easier to fly
than to face another night in southern sun
and your love is all around
(x2)
in the air to set me free
set me free
you last like a song
I'm deflated
I am pieces on the wind
unrelated
I still feel you
beneath my skin
I am tempted
to throw my senses in
'cos its easier to fly
than to face another night in southern sun
and your love is all around
in the air to set me free
set me free
'cos its easier to fly
set me free
HO-LE Sh-It
I swear, trance makes more sense than any other type of music and there's trance for every occasion.
Southern Sun hit me like crazy. I've been thinking about this song for about two weeks. Anit (note: anit not a word) that crazy.
Being free, at peace, in love. Man that is the shit right there. I need to complete two more of those three and I'll be flying high. Need peace and love.
oh smitty, I sound like a hippy, what the fuck is up with that. I want to write out my translation of this mess, but its all in my head and I can't quite put it into words.
Maybe if I don't go gambling tonight, I'll go philosoph on this song, but for now I'm just killing time till lunch.
Nov. 4th, 2004 @ 11:38 am
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